Consistent Inconsistency

That title may sound confusing, and my thoughts may be out there, but I am determined to write and get them out! Writing is so cathartic for me, and I definitely need to get some thoughts I have been reflecting on down on paper-ish! :) I have been contemplating this quote all week, and feel that God has been showing me, through many people and facets, how He sees me, and how wildly differently I see myself.

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Wow...what a thought-worthy quote, right? Our behavior is directly impacted by our thoughts. We think so many thoughts about and towards ourselves throughout the day. How many times do we put ourselves down, tell ourselves we can't do something, or doubt our abilities? And yet we set goals for ourselves and want to do positive, worthwhile things, all while focusing on the negative. We cannot consistently do something good if we are always putting ourselves down. Whether our goal is to lose weight, get healthy, start a business, pass a class, or write a book, we will never accomplish these goals in a worthy and positive manner while remaining in a negative thought cycle. We will always be inconsistent, and likely fail in all of our endeavors if we do not first fix how we see ourselves.

I am determined to see myself the way God sees me. Galatians 3:26 states that I am a child of God! Philippians 4:13 says I can do all things through Christ because He is my strength! I find myself questioning these truths constantly, mostly because I tend to focus on my shortcomings instead of my potential. I focus on all the times I have not followed through with something; my inconsistencies. However, this just leads to even more inconsistency, more negativity, and the cycle continues.

I believe that we all have to focus on our thoughts and mind, and from these feelings, we act. Sometimes, we just have to keep telling ourselves that we CAN do it, keep telling God we DO trust him, and wait for the feelings to follow. The way we talk to ourselves is so much more important than we think! Let's all aim to be kind of ourselves and encourage ourselves in all that we do. If we find ourselves being down and negative, let's remember our identity in Christ, that we are God's children, and that we were made for a purpose. We all have God-given potential just waiting to get out! The more we seek God and find our identity in Him, the less negatively we will see ourselves and the more peace we will have about who we are and what we were made to do. As Matthew 6:33 states, "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

Arrowhead Musings

We all have had those unforgettable weekends. Whether it is at a church retreat, vacation, or simply a wonderful few days spent at home, some weekends will be ingrained in your mind forever. Well, that was this past weekend for me. I know I mentioned in a previous post about what a wonderful weekend it was. I had a fun and joyful time with my fiancé, family, and friends. But there are so many things that God taught me that I never want to forget. I probably will, being human and all, but I know God will keep reminding me, speaking to my heart, and will not give up on growing and teaching me. Writing has always helped me sort out my thoughts, so I thought that I would write out some of the things I learned in order to refresh my mind and be reminded of God's goodness and blessings upon me.

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*God's creation is absolutely beautiful. *God wants to change our hearts, and turn our world upside down. *Let go of myself, and let God work through me. * God can renew my mind and fill me more and more with Him. * I desire to be used by God in whatever way He sees fit. * Being crucified with Christ means I can let go of me, and not be dictated by my past failings because God has made me new! * It is no longer I that live, but Christ living in me! * Attitude means everything. * Gratefulness needs to be a part of my everyday life and world view.

And then a few more things... * Donuts bring people together. * It's really hard to workout in high altitudes...but my fiancé is a trooper for waking up at 6am to do boot camp with me! * It can rain, then be sunny in the mountains within an hour. * I shouldn't be afraid to play sports...even though I am no volleyball champion! * Having fun...is really fun! * Letting my "little cousin" drive me in a go cart...best decision I've ever made! Haha :) * My family means everything to me.....I love them more than words can say. * I really miss my Asdghig Auntig... * Even uncomfortable beds can give you incredible rest. * It's amazing how much you don't use your phone when you are away with those you love and in God's creation! *Appreciate every seemingly little and big thing that God brings your way. A grateful heart brings joy.

Thank you Jesus :)

Article Review: Nuts about nuts!

It’s time for my second article review post! I have realized this past week just how big of a nerd I am. Since we are going on our 2-week cruise to Hawaii in just 3 short days, I have been downloading a ton of reading material onto my iPad. This reading material consists of journal articles, clinical trials, and meta-analysis studies all pertaining to nutrition. In addition to this, I also had the idea of writing mini-essays on the cruise about the articles I read, what I am learning, and what new things I obtain from reading these articles. I am giving myself homework while on VACATION!!! Either a.) I am a complete nerd, or b.) I definitely have gone into the right field since I am genuinely excited about learning new things every day! I think it is a little bit of both a and b! Today’s article will focus on nuts and their health benefits! The article I chose is entitled: “Prospective study of nut consumption, long-term weight change, and obesity risk in women.” Here is the citation, because I am a good little student!

Bes-Rastrollo, M., Wedick, N. M., Martinez-Gonzalez, M. A., Li, T. Y., Sampson, L., & Hu, F. B. (2009). Prospective study of nut consumption, long-term weight change, and obesity risk in women. The American journal of clinical nutrition, 89(6), 1913-1919.

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Nuts have been included in both dietary recommendations and dietary restrictions throughout the years. Because of their high fat content, nuts have been banished from many a weight-loss program. However, the benefits of nuts have been coming to light, which is making many people turn to nuts as snacks, toppings for salads, and even to bake with (almond flour, cashew flour, etc.). The authors of this article focused on measuring the association between long-term nut consumption and changes in weight in women. The women chosen for this study were ages 20-45 years, and had no cardiovascular disease, diabetes, or cancer. Nut consumption was measured over a period of 8 years, since authors were looking at long-term nut consumption.

The researchers measured these women’s nut consumption by using a food-frequency questionnaire (or FFQ), which measures how often you eat certain foods over a period of time. Nut butters, as well as tree nuts, and peanuts (which are botanically legumes, but share nutritional properties with nuts) were included in this questionnaire. Data on changes in body weight in these women were also collected over the years.

Results showed that over the course of the 8-year study, average weight gain was about 5 +/- 7 kg among the participants of the study (or 11 +/- 15 lbs). The women who consumed more nuts were older, had a higher average caloric intake, and were more physically active than those who did not consume nuts at all. However, interestingly enough, these women who consumed more nuts were actually leaner and gained weight at a slower rate compared to those who rarely consumed nuts. The researchers found no association between high nut consumption and increased rate of weight gain throughout the years, which means eating more nuts does not equal gaining more weight. The average daily consumption of the women who experienced the benefits of eating nuts was about 1-2 oz/day, which is the equivalent of about 1/4-1/2 cup of nuts. However, a key point the authors emphasized is that the women that consumed more nuts had a healthier and more active lifestyle overall. They also stated that the replacement of other foods is key. If we are to increase our nut consumption, the calories from the nuts must take the place of other foods that we are eating. The authors concluded that regular nut consumption could be a vital component in an overall healthy lifestyle.

Personal reflections:

I really enjoyed reading this article because I found that it greatly supported my experience with snacking and nuts. In my high school and early college years, I was a very big “100-calorie pack” snacker. I loved crackers, Oreos, gold fish, and other kinds of highly refined and processed carbohydrate snacks. However, the fact that they were in 100-calorie packs made me feel better about my choices because these snacks controlled my portions. What I did not like about these snacks was that they made me feel hungry about an hour later! After starting more of my nutrition classes and learning more about the feeling of fullness fats provide and the health benefits of nuts, I started consuming more nuts on a regular basis. I felt fuller for a longer period of time, had more energy, and even experienced other benefits such as stronger hair and nails. About a year ago, I started eating less grains and more healthy fats, incorporating nuts into my diet every day, as well as other healthy fats such as olive oil and avocados. However, I also replaced these foods with my usual crackers, popcorn, breads, and pastas. I have found that even though my caloric intake is slightly higher now while eating a higher fat diet (1g of fat provides 9 calories vs. 1g of protein and carbohydrates, which only provides 4 calories), I have found myself to be more satisfied with my meals, feel fuller for a longer period of time, and lose weight in a much easier, less deprived manner.

Now don’t get me wrong, I do not eat low carb, I just have a lower grain consumption than I used to have. I still have bananas, sweet potatoes, and rice because we need carbohydrates for fuel, and they taste amazing! I am just not as scared of higher-fat food choices anymore. I realize that my body needs these foods as much as it needs carbohydrates and protein. I am also a “happier” person when I include these fats into my diet! I have more energy and am in a better mood than when I am feeling weak, lightheaded, and hungry! Overall, I have realized that incorporating high fat foods into my diet, and replacing my usual refined carbohydrate food choices with these healthy fats has had a tremendously positive impact on my health! I have lost weight, have more energy, and don’t have a fear of getting hungry an hour after eating!

However, I do believe that portion size is an important factor to consider here. 1-2 oz of nuts a day (or 1/4-1/2 cup of nuts) is the proper portion for this food, providing 200-400 calories. This is a hefty number to just add on to your typical diet already, which is why the replacement factor is key to having success with this type of lifestyle! Instead of having a sandwich with two slices of bread, how about ditching the bread, making the meal into a salad or a lettuce-wrapped sandwich, and then adding ½ an avocado or a small handful of nuts to your meal? These small choices will help us incorporate more healthy fats into our diet, while losing weight and having more energy. In conclusion, I firmly agree with the findings of this article and believe we need to include more nuts, as well as other healthy fats (olive oils, avocados, etc.) into our daily diets!

Rest Day: Daily Manna 10/17

Soooo this Daily Manna is being written a day late, but that's okay! It's also probably not a very exciting one, because yesterday was a rest day. I am not a fan of rest days! I know I may be a rare breed but I literally wake up in the mornings excited for my run and my workout! But, I knew I had to take a rest day yesterday because of my hip/knee (and possibly today too...icing my injuries at the moment). My pain has progressively gotten worse over the past week, to the point where my entire right leg feels like dead weight. I regretfully decided to take a rest day yesterday, so this is what my day looked like! I woke up early per usual, since my internal clock believes the day will go to waste if I wake up after 6:30am. However, I've always been okay with this because it makes me feel very productive. I am a morning person through and through. After my quiet time, I decided to channel my usual morning energy from my workout to some study energy! I took my mom to work and was at a coffee shop by 7:30am with my RD study book studying away.

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As you can tell, I was very sad to be taking a rest day, but decided that my Mickey and Minnie shirt would obviously make me feel better! :) I also thoroughly enjoyed my new and improved pumpkin bread recipe! I am trying to decrease the amount of protein powder I am using and increase the almond flour to help with how fluffy the baked good is coming out, and boy was I successful! I'm going to do the same thing with my brownies today and see if it will make them equally as moist and fluffy! And I can hopefully post these new and improved recipes soon!

ANYWAYS! I got to coffee bean and studied straight for about 2 hours...

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I then decided to take a break for my apple and 100 calorie pack of almonds!

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I read some of my book during my break as well ("Mere Christianity" by C.S. Lewis) and then continued to study until about 11am. My brain was definitely feeling tired at this point. I went to Chipotle to grab lunch for my friend, my mom, and myself! I then headed to my mom's work to have lunch with them!

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Lunch was kind of disappointing. I haven't had the meat at chipotle for a few weeks every since I tried the barbacoa (which usually tastes great) and had an awful experience with it. But I also don't like just getting beans and rice because, even though it tastes great, it doesn't fill me up as much as the protein. I decided to be brave and try the bowl with 1/2 barbacoa and 1/2 chicken...which was a bad idea since I got sick again...ohhhhh Chipotle. SO good but so bad...I guess I will have to stick to my beans and rice and make sure I have substantial protein and go easy on the grains during the day!

I ended up staying at my mom's work and studying there for a while longer until my brain just could not take it anymore! I had my snackie snack while reading some of my Bible. I love having some Bible time mid-day. My quiet times in the morning are so special to me, but sometimes I need that little reminder during the day of God's promises and how much He loves and cares for me! :)

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We had an early dinner last night and I forgot to take a picture of it even though we went to one of my favorite pizza places! Yes, I said pizza! I love this place and the gluten in the crust is definitely worth it to me! They make their pizza so fluffy and fresh and delicious. We usually start out with a yummy and light salad, followed by our pizza! My mom and I shared a "personal" sized veggie pizza, which is actually enough for about 3 people! I had two slices and definitely savored every bite of each slice! I've realized that, if I space out my gluten enough, it doesn't bother my tummy as much. But if I have too much of it in one day, or all day for a few days in a row, that's when the problems occur. I am happy to report that last night's dinner did not bother me and I enjoyed every single bite! I promise to take pictures next time, because the pictures definitely portray how yummy this pizza really is!!!

Currently, I am icing my hip and knee, which is really helping with the inflammation and pain. I was planning to take a rest day today as well, but I am contemplating going to the gym to do an easy elliptical workout and some weights. I guess I will see as the day progresses!

I hope you all have a wonderful Friday and weekend! :)

Take My Thoughts Captive

Lately, I have been trying to be more intentional about my thoughts. My thought life is very jumpy and inconsistent. I tend to have full-faith about things one moment, then be crippled with anxiety and worry the next. I turn to the Lord during these times, but it is very difficult to keep my eyes and mind fixed on God when there are constant distractions and problems coming my way. Anyone else? I feel like life is always going to throw us waves, and I would love to just swim in the storms that come at me knowing the Lord is with me even in the turmoil. I think having this type of peace starts with have captive thoughts. I use this phrase a lot and it is often a staple in my prayers during times of worry, anxiety, or feelings of defeat. This concept of "captive thoughts" was first brought to my attention while reading 2 Corinthians 10. Verses 3-5 jumped out at me:

"For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."

I've memorized this verse because it has become a constant companion for me in times of distress. I love the promise that God equips us with weapons to demolish our strongholds. Strongholds are anything that take us "captive" and consume us whether it is work, school, family, striving for good health, worry, anxiety, etc. Many of these things aren't bad by themselves (for example, being healthy is great! Having a good job to support your family is wonderful!) But, anything, even good things, can become a stronghold if they take the place of God is our lives. Psalm 18:2 states, "The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold" (emphasis mine). God is the only one that can secure us as our fortress, deliverer, rock, shield, and stronghold. But isn't it so like us humans to get swept up in our thoughts, problems, and lives that we turn these into our focus, our motivations for security, and essentially our strongholds? These thoughts, as 2 Corinthians states, can set themselves up against the knowledge of God. Thoughts like "if I have that job, car, dress, significant other, etc, my life will be so much better and complete" can often turn our motivations upside-down and cause us to focus on "worldly-things" instead of "God-things."

But! Thank the Lord He has equipped us with weapons to demolish these strongholds! We can tear down these "arguments" and "pretensions" in our heads that place worldly things before our relationship with God. When worries and anxieties come, which, let's face it, they inevitably will, we can turn to the Lord and ask Him to equip us with weapons that demolish these thoughts. We can put on the full armor of God. Ephesians 6:13-18 states,

"Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people."

These verses seem pretty dense, but they are basically telling us to take up the armor that God freely gives us through His promises, forgiveness, grace, and WORD. The more we know about God, the more we can use these weapons against our destructive thoughts. And how do we know more about God? By taking the "sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God" and becoming so familiar with who God is, what He promises, and what He has done for us, which is all recorded in His word!

Knowing more truths about God will help us focus on who HE is in times of anxiety and worry. When these times come, we can ask him to take all of our thoughts captive and make them obedient to HIM! God has equipped us with the power of the Holy Spirit (Acts 1:8), and we can use this power. We can ask God for wisdom and believe that He will give it to us (James 1:5). Galatians 5:1 states, "It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery." God set us free to be and live like we are a FREE people, not to still be captive to destructive and anxiety-driven thoughts.

However, we cannot have captive thoughts that are obedient to Christ without the help and power of the Holy Spirit. We must ASK God to help us in our thought-lives. We must acknowledge that the Lord's thoughts and ways are greater than any of our worries, problems, or even aspirations and dreams. Isaiah 55: 8-9 state: "“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." We have to trust that God has a better plan for us because His ways are higher than we can ever imagine! Trust me, this is SO hard for me. It is difficult to focus on what God is doing at times when things just seem so overwhelming you can't fathom how it will all work out for your good. But the Bible even has something to say about that :) Romans 8:28 states: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

I am trying so hard to be more intentional about what I think about. We simply have to believe what the Lord says. Believe that we can demolish strongholds by asking for the weapons that God has promised to us. Believe that we can ask God to take our thoughts captive and make them obedient to Christ. And lastly, believe that God will work all things together for our good! :)

Think About Such Things

"Finally brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable; if anything is excellent or praiseworthy, think about such things." Philippians 4:8 (NIV) I have a confession to make. I struggle in my thought life. A LOT! I find it very easy to get down on myself, get stressed out, focus on all I have to do and all I am not doing, and just bask in all my worries. My mom shared this verse with me recently and, even though I am very familiar with it in the "memorize-in-Christian-elementary-school" type way, I had never truly reflected on it until now.

Most of the time, I want a practical, clear cut way to apply the verses of the Bible to my life. When someone says "trust the Lord with it!" and dismisses my thoughts, as if all my worries will disappear, I often want to know a practical, step-by-step approach to trusting the Lord, as well as what it actually looks like strategically to trust God. How is that lived out on a day-to-day basis? How does that look to those around me? These verses in Philippians seemed to finally answer these questions for me this morning.

Whatever is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent, praiseworthy...THINK ABOUT SUCH THINGS! It's pretty clean cut, simple, and practical if you ask me. We have a lot more say about where our minds travel than we think we do. After all, why would Paul (through the power of the Holy Spirit) instruct, even command us to think about such things? That implies that we have some say in the matter, doesn't it?

I want to claim this God-given strength that I have over my thought life! I want God to take all of my thoughts captive and make them obedient to Him (2 Corinthians 10:5). But how does this actually work? Practically? :)

I believe that we flat out have to ask God to give us the strength to glorify Him with our thoughts. We can't do this alone. Our human mind is one scary place...or at least mine is! I know I can't focus on what is true, noble, pure, right, etc without His power working in me. In those moments when life gets tough and we are so quick to be negative and get down on ourselves, a quick prayer of "Lord, I need You. Take control of my thoughts and help me focus on what is pure and right and praiseworthy!" could make a huge difference in the direction our hour, day, week, or even life goes.

I also believe that prayer is not a magic formula where you plug in all the right words and BOOM God comes through. If it worked like that, we would only rely on our abilities. I believe prayer is a state of mind where, all day every day, you are in tune with the Holy Spirit, realizing that God is God and you are not, and turning over all the day's activities, thoughts, and worries to the Lord. Acknowledging that only God can help us "think about such things" will help us rely on Him instead of our usual human reaction which is typically "just suck it up," "get over it," or "distract yourself." We need to get comfortable with being a little uncomfortable in the moment, take that discomfort to God, and let him turn our harmful, worrisome, and destructive thoughts into beautiful thoughts and words that He will use for His glory.

"...for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill His good purpose." Philippians 2:13