Warning: I have no idea where I'm going with this post, but I felt the need to write, which is why I started this blog in the first place. I feel like I am in a growing and learning phase of my life lately, and I am kind of LOVING it. And needing to process it. There is a season for everything, right? That's how I feel like life has been like for me the past couple years. You are always learning and growing as a person. I want to constantly be stretched and challenged and matured. Staying stagnant is not exciting, so I have been pushing myself to learn more about myself, what works for me, and how I can better serve others.
This pregnancy has definitely been a time of growth. I am learning how my body works, that my body is pretty awesome for supporting our baby girl, and that there is a fine balance between rest and activity. I have had so much nervous energy as we get closer and closer to Baby Emma's arrival (eeeek I am already 31 weeks today) and it's been hard to slow down. I want to clean the entire house and am constantly looking for things we can just get rid of or donate to relieve some of the clutter. Is this nesting? I don't know, but I feel like I am focusing so much on my surroundings and making them picture perfect for our little princess. Which I know isn't possible, because I'm tired come 4pm and am becoming a little more lax on how spick and span the house should be. And that's ok.
As a dietitian, I am also constantly growing and stretching in my knowledge. It's hard nowadays, when basically everyone believes they are a nutrition expert and is dishing out nutrition advice for all to follow. But I've learned to keep an open mind towards nutrition, because it is an evolving field governed by science and research, but also about how a client FEELS and what works for them and their body.
That's why I LOVE doing what I do. I get to really KNOW my clients, tailor a plan that works for them, and watch them soar, stumble, learn, grow, and achieve. But what's cool is I get to do this for myself too! Being a nutrition nerd, I am always trying to figure out how to best nourish myself, as well as the clients I serve as a dietitian and as a health & fitness coach. And you know what I am learning more of? People don't need to be told what to eat, they need to understand the WHY behind their food choices. Why is it so important to get enough vegetables in your diet. Why are healthy fats NOT the reason you are getting fat? Why are some people sensitive to foods. Why is it a good decision to restrict yourself sometime, but indulge at other times?
Asking yourself why is the key, because this question will help you understand what will work for you. Being on a health and fitness journey myself for the past few years, I've learned what works for me and what doesn't. Sometimes, I can indulge in a few fries or a treat and move on. Other times, I have to say no because I know one treat will turn into an all-day binge. I've learned a lot about myself and have become more aware of what works for me and what doesn't, even if those things change and evolve over time.
Sometimes I can go out for breakfast and have pancakes, enjoy them, and be fine. Other times, I know that sugar rush will send me into a tailspin of other treats and leave me with a head and tummy ache for days. So I opt for yummy eggs and call it a day, because having eggs in that instance are more freeing than indulging in pancakes.
I learned these things because I got CURIOUS about myself. I wanted to know what made me tick. I wanted to know what worked well for my body. For a while, that was eating mostly plant based foods. Right now, with baby coming, what's working is eating good quality animal proteins, veggies, and healthy carbs. And eating every 2 hours. And avoiding donuts because they give me heartburn. Speaking of which...
I also have a gluten sensitivity, which tends to feel like the elephant in the room that I love to ignore, but I realize I should probably acknowledge. So that's been a learning curve for me as well because I know avoiding gluten is better for me and my health, but I am also human and love bread and wetzels pretzels cinnamon sugar bites. And sometimes I avoid gluten-containing foods strictly and sometimes I treat myself and deal with the consequences. And this is NOT ideal because I know I have a sensitivity (and a doctor's note to prove it haha!), and I really want to eat gluten free and take care of me! But I make it into a bigger deal than it is and get all emotional about bread and pizza crust and confuse myself into oblivion. But to be honest, deep down, I just want to go with the flow, while taking care of myself as much as possible, body, mind, and soul. Pregnancy is probably not the time to figure all this out, but I'm working on it daily. It might seem silly to make this issue such a big deal (Tveen, you are sensitive to it, just don't eat it and move on!) but this is me. An overthinking, anxious, bread-lover!
And I used to be a gym rat and now I workout at home because I save SOO much time and find that I actually stick to programs better when I can just do them at home. They work for me and make fitness fun and EASY to fit into my life. And with a baby coming, this is the only way I know I'll still get my workouts in! And that makes me happy!
And I used to be a clean freak but pregnancy has made me a bit more accepting of leaving a few dishes in the sink or not dusting every few days. I'd rather focus on nourishing my body and working on my business. And cleaning once a week instead of daily. Because this is what's working for me right now.
So I guess the point of all this rambling is to get curious about yourself. Figure out what makes you tick and what works for you. Accept where you struggle and ask for help.
What lifestyle helps you stay calm, work towards your goals, and be the best version of yourself? Then go do those things with all your heart and figure yourself out on this crazy journey called life. It's so freeing instead of trying to mold yourself into what works for others.
So here I am, pregnant, embracing gluten free bread (the Trader Joe's one is the best actually!!) with 3 loads of laundry waiting for me at home, while I build a business and grow a human. Oh, and I had fries for lunch today.
Ok, that's enough vulnerability for one day. Have a great Monday everyone! And thanks for reading my crazy pregnancy thoughts! Love you all! :)